I started delving into aspects of the Law of Attraction around Septemberish of 2009. My determination and refinement of understanding and my handling of practices followed a gentle slope for about 6 months. Around month 4-5, (January-Februaryish) I became super determined, and it was around then the Kirikou Challenge developed. It was also around this time and the months that closely followed, I truly watched
magnificence and intentions beautifully manifest.
It took about 6 months of dedication and determination to see
undeniable results and I could feel with out a fraction of doubt- my point of buoyancy (the place i was centered at, where i would bob back to after a big bummer -moment of intense contrast- or a hyped up happiness) was significantly higher than ever before in my life.
Great success!
But it was then, in my humble and amateur understandings of power of consistency, I thought the work was done, like a mountain climbed. I honestly felt that it was totally cool to ease up and just enjoy the new ride I had created. A brand new MacBookPro, the best few months of a relationship, ever, my house and environment beautiful and in order, health, money coming in strong and consistently, the resources conspiring to not only help me start a business, but also purchase a house.
Needless to say, in the months that followed my laziness and self-justified lack of determination on the "Kirikou" path, things have shifted and, as an example, I sit here writing this quite sick and hoping my client pays me the money he owes me today so I can pay rent. This is not to say it's all bad either. Still many amazing things are blooming, coming to fruition, and happening. It is just a much different vibe and feeling than a few months ago.
I am so grateful for this experience. What an incredible life lesson, that I certainly knew by head, but I am now learning by heart. To climb a mountain for the purpose, victory of reaching the top vs. to climb for the love of climbing. Once you reach the top it's over. Its one climb. And then there's the let down. The climber who climbs for the love also probably enjoys the snack at the top, the climb half way down, and then the trail run back to the car. And then loves the
Guster playing in the car and the way the water hits her lips while she sips as she drives home. And then the shower, rest, and getting up to either climb again or go on some other fantastic adventure.
Achievement vs. Adventure
Instant Gratification vs. Rewards Gained Over Time
Porn vs. the Pleasure of Planting a Seed, Watching It Sprout, Grow, Enjoying its Fruits
Surely many have "gotten" this wonderful understanding already. But, baby, this is fresh to me. I've spent much energy this lifetime resisting determination, persistence, consistency, daily practice. In confusion I thought of these things negatively, not my nature, not part of a life of a free spirit. In fact, that perspective was child-like.
It's like a second right of passage. At the age of 13, I became a "woman" according to my ethnic, cultural and traditional Jewish roots. Now, 13 years later, at 26, I feel a strong sense of shedding of child-like patterns and ways as I step into practices and perspectives of adulthood. I have, for the first time, truly awaken to see the beauty and incredible power of commitment and practice.